I wrote my thoughts i want someone to tell me whats wrong?

im putting all my ideas to life... f**k there's so many things on my mind though.... lol... whats keeping me down???? i realize that family is fading away with time... I RECOGNIZE IM PUSING PEOPLE AWAY... WHATS HAPPENING? IF GOD HAS SOMETHING WAITING FOR ME... ITS DEFINITELY A BIG DEAL.... REAL BIG... IM CAPABLE OF MUCH MORE THAN WHAT I THINK... AND TO REALIZE.... IS THE FIRST STEP... RIGHT??? WELLL IM JUST RANTING...ANYWAY... PEOPLE IN MY PATH HAVE PROVED MY THEORIES WRONG.. NOT EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET ME OR STEP ON MY TO GET TO HIGHER GROUNDS... I HEAR PEOPLE COMPLAIN ABOUT LIFE BUT WHAT IS IT?? WHAT IS EVERYONE AFTER A DREAM??? A BETTER LIFE?? WHAT??? I KNOW THAT MY BETTER LIFE, IS NOTHING BUT A THOUGHT... DARE I BRING IT TO REALITY? THE RESPONSIBILITIES OF IT... ITS LIKE A BLINDING WHITE LIGHT DESPITE THE BLINDING EFFECTS OF IT... I MUST CONTINUE. IS LIFE A STRAIGHT PATH?? NO... ITS LIKE SWIRLS TWIRLS, DETOURS, MULTIPLE PAGEWAYS, BROKEN ROADS AND LEAPS OF FAITH... THATS ME... I FEEL ME TOO GREAT FOR WHAT IM GOING THROUGH BUT THATS WHAT IS CREATING ME.... KNOWLEDGE... THE ABILITY TO BE WISE BEYOND MY EARS... ANY PSYCHOLOGY MAJORS WANNA TELL ME WHAT IM GOING THROUGH?? JUST FOR KICKS...